It feels as though I have no control over my anxiety. Someday I wake up and feel completely extraordinary and can take on anything the day tosses at me, and afterward, inside the following 5 minutes, my chest will start to feel heavy, my breathing will be short as though I just ran 10 km full speed, I'll break out in sweat, my hands will shake and due to this staggering/wild inclination, I start to cry and feel so depleted from this scene that I'm prepared to turn directly around and crawl back in bed terrified that this will happen once more. My body can experience this regular on different occasions or not in the least. Sometimes I know why, and sometimes I don’t and the worst of it, is that it will show up at any given time throughout my day without any notice making it difficult to plan my day ahead of time or to try and consider going out by any stretch of the imagination.
Its damaging and destructive and will rot your brain.
This drug may not be poison? But cure?
My mind stirs and beats, clearing corrosive at its pivots, not to break itself, however, to thump planted the door-the door that prompts answer, the revelation, the flashback, the mystery that will liberate me.
Up is down.
Down is up.
Right is left.
Left is right.
In my mind, it is completely cluttered up.
I nibble my nails. I pull my hair. I toss the cushion. I punch the wall.
All looking for the appropriate answers.
In any case, we cannot discover any.
It goes however it returns and the idea of it returning to me alarms me consistently.
Such a raw and honest description 😞
We shall look for professional help if things are getting not better.May Allah give strength and power to every single person facing it. Amen.
Every bit of this is so relatable!
May Allah remove all your tears, worries, sorrows and pains and replace them with complete happiness and good health. Ameen❤️
Have gone through this and I can understand each and every thing you have been through. Always there for you, more power and love to you babe ♥️♥️♥️
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