Chaos Before the Calm

Depression isn't poetic and heartbreak isn't beautiful . It's long sleepless nights and dark scary thoughts . It's everything you would never wish for . It's a black dark cloud hanging above your head or wounds on soul . Depression is emptiness who left scars on your soul and heartbreak makes your heart ache . It's your worst enemy or it's your BEST-FRIEND . Depression is so much more than tablets and few dark days , it's more than shutting yourself away.Depression is not always feeling numb sitting alone. It is feeling numb while sitting with people when you completely feel zoned out and empty inside.

Prisoner of own thoughts. Is there a way to find peace?

Heartbreak is tough in its own way , its not easy to move on and stop crying no matter how many times they say " you're taking so much time to get out of this" . I know it hurts . I know how it feels. I know how it feels when you are with your friends physically but not mentally. I know how it feels when you sleep with the same disturbing thoughts and wake up with them and some days are worst when you cannot sleep. So don't use depression to describe how you're feeling when you feel upset and feel so much pain in your chest and your wound is burning your soul every once in a while because its so much more than that . And if you're dealing with these feelings, I want you to know that what matter is your own self . No one is gonna come on white horse and get you out of this you have to be your own hero .Everyone is selfish in its own way .So make yourself your first priority.

I know you're really strong ,However you're taking so much time but you can come out of this Thank you for not losing hope.